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| April 23 ; Finally turned 17. This is the age where I am able to buy tickets to see Rated-R movies legally. ( Not that I pay for my tickets anyways, ahem.) The age where even if I'm spotted by the police out in the streets at 3 in the morning - I will not be charged or get in trouble through curfew. The age where if I do get caught doing anything illegal - I may actually go to jail. ( Haha.) The age that's one year away from being 18! & the age where people will soon expect even more from me. As days past by, I find myself contemplating about what my future may bring.
Although I am only 17 years young, I feel like I've experience a good amount of things to be viewed as a woman now instead of a young girl. I've always been a huge fan of respect. I believe that MOST people out there deserve respect. Especially teachers, parents & older adults. That was how I was raised, but in recent years ; I have 2 of my morals clashing down on me. I also believe in sticking up for myself & try hard to not allow people to turn me into a pushover, but at the same time - keeping class & composure. Over the year, I can't explained the amount of disrespect I get from random people that I would never expect to be disrespected by. I am truly disappointed but at the same time, I believe that if I am doing my part by respecting others - then I will be respected back from those who actually know their morals.
With every year that seem to past by, I find myself experiencing many changes. There's good changes as well as bad changes. But because of the changes that have been made in my life - I am who I am now. &as people age, they tend to settle more for the mature personality & sometimes lose their outgoing personality & excitement towards things. I do not wish to be like that. I believe that everyone have both an immature & mature side. Some people go overboard & never know when's the right time to be mature & when it's okay to be some-what immature. Don't mistaken me though, I don't want that either. Instead, I want to be able to be viewed as a mature girl but at the same time, keep my outgoing & fun side going so I can actually enjoy life.
I've made it this far & everything looks smooth from here. In the past few years, I've had really bad self-esteem issues. Let's face it though - What teenage girl, better yet, woman doesn't have self-esteem issues? I can't remember a time where I felt fully confident being in my body. Growing up, I wasn't too pleased about my looks. But as time goes by, I've learned to look past my imperfections & seek my inner self to find something new about myself, other than my flaws. I've gained confidence over the year but at the same time - I'm not overly conceited.
I feel as though I'm in a pretty okay position right now. I have friends that have been there for me since I was a little girl & watch me grew into the person I've become now. & friends that I've made recently but can still rely on. & with that being said, I'd like to thank all my friends who greeted me a happybirthday. Goodnight my loves.
"Present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." — Philippians 4:6-7
Thanks to those who greeted me a happy birthday ;
Ray John De Los Reyes, Mervin Ambat, Aprille Impe, John Reyes, Doug Hun Choi, Arounsith Vongkoth, Patrick Au, Julie Chao, Nhi Nguyen, Sony Van, Andy Chanta, Jose Javier Torres, Ann Amancio, Frankie Jiang, Muhammad Khairul, Kati Deloyola, Czarina Cey Carino, Victor Salcedo, Kyle Lin, Ann Phan, Daniel Ky, Vinh T. Nguyen, Joy Sasitronaree, Ann Kayle Sibal, Matthew M. Querol, William Ng, Tetta Oyama, Jenny Ky, Julie Tran, Brian Jeremy Guerrero, Cathy Lam, Nicole Tuquilar, Vinh Phan Tran, Kelly Diep, Asadullah Ahmadi, Ismael Lozano, Emeldina Memic, Heaven Lane, Daniel Dinh, Baitul Javid, Fiza Javid, Adamson Suiza, X-Tine Nguyen, Nancy Quan, Julia Vo, France La, Ella Lam, Kenneth Ky, Miki Pilar, Jennifer Luong, Shahbaaz Hasan, Ashley Roe, Will Vo, Christopher Ayala, Angelina Dan, Timantha Tran, Czarina De Leon, Tina Chu, Jin Choi, Jason Sim, Kevin Ky, Asad Qureshi, Pimpson Bank Brian, Sara Lam, Irene Frangos, Karen Segura, Lyanne Hernandez, Steve Briciu, Ojay, Jennifer Nguyen, Lulu Kao, Vince Nguyen, Genesis Martinez, Bryant Van, Henry Vo, Chim C. , Steven Tun, Jimmy Munedane, George Amax., Bailey Chao, Eric Truong, Eric Damasco, David Dang, Kevin Sanchez, Nikko Relucio, Giuseppe Villa, Tamara Alsop, & ETC. Sorry that I wasn't able to list everyone out. Wasn't able to keep counting my text messages & calls .. But you know who you guys are! Thank youu!
Special Thanks :
RAY JOHN DE LOS REYES, MERVIN AMBAT, APRILLE IMPE, JOHN REYES & MR.WATERMELON. The night/day couldn't have started off any better than to have the "group" some-what reuniting before my eyes in front of my door step with a CHOCOLATE icecream cake, balloon & WATERMELON. I dislike chocolate but I will eat that whole thing just for you guys. Ha. Very, very slowly.. Thank you guys.
Doug Hun Choi aka my bff<3. Olive you bff & thank you for spending the day with me & planning everything. Getting lost with you was undescribable & definitely something that I will never ever forget! Sorry for ruining your surprise for me =X.
Linda for making that CUTEASS turtle poster<3 & the balloons!
Aprille for making me that BEAUTIFUL scrap paper & putting it in the frame. You inspired me to start scrapbooking again, ha! & thanks to those who type up messages there : Hung Dinh, Billy Munedane, Arounsith Willie Vongkoth, Christopher James Ayala, RayJohnDeLosReyes, Jimmy Munedane, Mervin Ambat, Eddie Munedane, Michelle Tran, Ann Kayle Sibal, John Frederick Reyes, Linda Nguyen, Thuan Le, Steven Tun, Aprille Kris Impe, & Doug Hun Choi.
& ONE MORE SPECIAL THANKS - I wasn't sure who exactly came over but when I got home ; I went straight to the shower. & My momma told me that somebody dropped off cake & 4 cars was outside waiting for me? I AM TRULY SORRY =/. I don't know who was in that 4 cars.. But thank you guys so much for coming all the way over<3.
Thanks for the gifts & thanks those who treated me out to eat, Ha!
SORRY for not coming out or if I wasn't able to see most of you guys ..
I'm not really into the whole "celebrating birthday" & attention thing.
So I avoid seeing everyone so that they don't have to put me on the spot
where I'd feel embarass or awkward =X. Ahem. | | |
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| For those who don’t quite know me yet – Here is a little something that pretty much sums my personality and overall as a whole. I’ll try to define myself as best as I can. Hmm .. Well, I think I’m a pretty chill girl. I lead a normal life & I’ve shared moments with people I wouldn’t trade the world for and those who I actually would trade the world for. For now – I don’t know exactly what I’m aiming for in life. I’ll just take it all in as it’s being thrown at me. I like meeting new people – but sometimes I come off way too “shy” or … well, different? So people tend to not accept me at first. But then again, I’m sure everyone is like that. I wish I could say that my heart is in the right place, but I’m not so sure that it is. Take a chance on me; impact my life in ways I never knew were possible. ☺.
So I haven’t blogged for quite a while. I guess you can say I’ve lost my inspiration? But let’s give you guys all an update on what has been going on in my life. Honestly – Nothing’s new in my life. Or maybe there is but I haven’t quite noticed yet. But I can’t believe this school year is almost over & I’ll be moving on to my Senior (Last) year! Isn’t it crazy how many ups & downs high school brings upon you? You don’t realize such things exist until you’re face-to-face with them. I never expected to be exposed to all that I have been exposed to. I started off my freshmen year as a regular Asian girl walking into Amundsen with nobody that I’m close with – except for a few of my Elementary friends, just a few. I barely even know any Asians since my Elementary school was full of every other race except Asians and Whites. I was going well my freshmen year though. Met a lot of new friends that I was able to open up with completely. I had straight A’s & just one tardy – No absences. I wasn’t too fond of make-up & was extremely against those who choose to smoke or drink in front of me. & After my first semester I had to move to Skokie, which basically flipped my life in a total 360. It’s as if I had to start my whole freshmen year again except, it was much more difficult this time. Missing my friends back in Chicago, I decided to transfer back to Amundsen which was a mission to accomplish, considering the fact that I had to wake up extra early in the morning to either bus to school or get a ride from my dad while hearing him lecture me about nonsense, & Now it’s my junior year. I have more Asians than any other type of races as my friends, I have 20+ absences, & my grades dropped. Still manage to hold up A’s & B’s in my classes though, luckily.. But not good enough in my Asian parent’s eyes. I wear make up almost everyday and don’t really care if people smoke or drink in front of me anymore. My freshmen years up until my junior year have consisted of many changes in so many different levels. Words can’t even explain the dramatic differences that 2 years can make. Whether it’s a good change or a bad, I honestly cannot tell. But I’m still living my life, still keeping my chin up – so I guess it’s a pretty good change eh? Perhaps. I mean, I’m happy to an extent if o.nly things were ALL in my favor – then I’d be at the top of the world. Too bad I’m not though Goodnight. Love, JoanneKy.
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| i am not who people might think.
i hurt when i am not heard.
i hate ignorance.
i hope for the best in people.
i hear our generation falling apart.
i regret not taking a chance.
i cry because it is a beautiful expression.
i care about the future.
i long to be faithful.
i feel defeated.
i listen to advice of others.
i hide because it hurts less.
i advoid confrontation.
i miss elementary school.
i need a sign.
i am self-reliant, protective, undefined
i have weird mood swings.
i'm stubborn as hell.
i scream & yell at people a lot.
i don't like to be annoyed or bothered.
i'm clumsy.
i procrastinate ...... a lot.
i have a horrible balance.
i can't save money.
i can be a hypocrite sometimes.
i have a hard time remembering things.
i can be super mean if i want to.
i'm a lazy person, very.
i'm picky with a lot of things.
i assume a lot of things
i can be quite boring.
i'm honest as hell which causes others to think
that i'm a real bitch.
& yeah, i AM a real bitch sometimes.
but my imperfections are what makes me real.
deal with it. (: | | |
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